Family

I never realized how the meaning of such a simple word like "Family" would change when I had a child. Instead of something I have no choice in belonging to; like a club with a mandatory life-time membership, it has become something I helped to build. Rather than rolling my eyes and sighing when thinking of "my family", now I smile.

I'll admit I am not perfect lol, far from it. I get frustrated (quite often) and need to take a break. It's certainly not easy being me anymore, but being "Mommy" is worth everything life can throw at me. When he's colicky or cranky sometimes I want to cry but when he's happy and calm or sleeping peacefully I feel like I could watch him all day. And either way, I love him more than life.

This week passed pretty much in a blur. At the moment (maybe because I'm tired) not too much is standing out to me. I did take a break and go out on my own for a few hours the other night (my parents babysat). Also of note, Erik spent the night yesterday :) I was finally feeling up to some real cuddling; how I've missed sleeping curled up together, resting my head on his chest ^_^!




I still have no idea what is going on with the apartment or with a job for me, but I guess I've come to the conclusion that I'll just have to take it as it comes. Can't really do anything else. Except enjoy my son :)




My Grandparents are coming over for dinner tonight, should be an interesting update, if not a few pictures at least. And then my parents are leaving tomorrow morning for Cape Cod. Yep, that's right. They are running away for their anniversary (25 Years on August 4th 2010), and leaving me and my son alone with my sisters O_O lol.





Wish Me Luck :P