Yesterday I slept in. After breakfast we spent the day "as a family" because all 5 of us were home.. We accomplished deciding when the Shower is going to be (May 16th a Sunday) time to be decided still. I've chosen my doctors (some of them, and not officially yet lol) PCP & Pediatrician, I have to go and speak with the doctors and co-ordinate everything, get all the official Medicaid paperwork done probably Sunday and Monday. Worked on my registries a little bit. Took a few new pictures (see below). Family went for a nice walk together, then Dad BBQed for dinner :D he makes a mean bbq chicken! Spoke to mom & dad about taking childbirth classes, they're all for it, & I found free classes at the cinic. I really wish Erik would go with me, but he just seems... disinterested :\ when I spoke to him about it he was like "if you REALLY REALLY want me to go, fine, just tell me when & where, but I am NOT holding your hand in labor, I don't want it broken. You're probobly better off with your mom there." :( Which may be the case... but it's not who I WANT to be there........ So I am reserving a spot in the classes and I guess I'll plan on going with mom ._. unless I can get Erik a little more interested in participating...
Today has been quiet so far... more later :)
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Well the day was okay, I pretty much sat around and rested. I made plans for a picnick with Tattie tomorrow might even bring Mimi along as a Tag-along after Steph leaves to go back to school in Buffalo, which will give my parents an afternoon alone together... lol.
I looked at the clock and saw it was 1030 and said "huh haven't heard from Erik he must be playing God of War 3 again...." so I call to chat for a few minuets and say goodnight. When he answered the phone I thought I had woken him up but he said "no". Then he sat there talking absolute nonsense for 15min which means he was basically talking in his sleep. Finally he started to wake up a little and I asked "how was your day" I said "Okay I guess, how was work?" becuase last night, he said he was working today. He says "I didnt go". Then he complains that I woke him up..... I ASKED YOU BEFORE AND YOU SAID NO!!!!!! So I asked "what did you do with your Saturday?" and he says "slept" as in all day. So I thought oh maybe he's not feeling well and I ask "are you feeling okay?" he gets all defensive and annoyed and says "I TOLD you I've been having trouble sleeping lately" which he actually HAS NOT MENTIONED AT ALL. Then he just sits there not saying anything at all, so I said "uhm ok I guess I'll let you get back to sleep" thinking he'd say "no it's ok" and talk to me for just a few minuets.. he says nothing. I say "Goodnight" after a long pause he finally says "oh uh goodnight" so I say "love u........" and he gets this annoyed/aggrivated tone and says "love you too baby bye".
He made it feel like talking to me was a chore. The only time I saw him ALL WEEK was on Thursday when I visited him after my doctors appointment. He could have at least spent 5 minuets on the phone....
I was already kind of upset with him over the childbirth class thing yesterday. And I was going to ask him if he could visit me today but he said he was gonna work, so I didn't bother because I figured work is more important. But he didnt go.... the last 2 weeks same thing... He keeps telling me not to stress and worry about $, because it'll all be okay. But if he keeps telling me he's working, nd he's not and we both know I'm not at the moment HOW can I NOT worry???????
IDK he's making me crazy. I'm so unhappy & upset right now. But I feel like I'm over-reacting, and I don't WANT to over-react. So I keep trying to ignore things, or justify things but I really am starting to feel like he is going to run away.. or that he's backing away slowly. We don't even HAVE a realationship anymore, we talk 1nc a day just to say "oh how was your day, good yours?" and then "ok goodnight, ily". We see each other maybe 2x a week for 15 min? Enough for a hug and a quick kiss......... and then he's running back out of my life.
And I cant DO anything because my stuipd ass is stuck at my parents! And he wont even TALK TO ME
I looked at the clock and saw it was 1030 and said "huh haven't heard from Erik he must be playing God of War 3 again...." so I call to chat for a few minuets and say goodnight. When he answered the phone I thought I had woken him up but he said "no". Then he sat there talking absolute nonsense for 15min which means he was basically talking in his sleep. Finally he started to wake up a little and I asked "how was your day" I said "Okay I guess, how was work?" becuase last night, he said he was working today. He says "I didnt go". Then he complains that I woke him up..... I ASKED YOU BEFORE AND YOU SAID NO!!!!!! So I asked "what did you do with your Saturday?" and he says "slept" as in all day. So I thought oh maybe he's not feeling well and I ask "are you feeling okay?" he gets all defensive and annoyed and says "I TOLD you I've been having trouble sleeping lately" which he actually HAS NOT MENTIONED AT ALL. Then he just sits there not saying anything at all, so I said "uhm ok I guess I'll let you get back to sleep" thinking he'd say "no it's ok" and talk to me for just a few minuets.. he says nothing. I say "Goodnight" after a long pause he finally says "oh uh goodnight" so I say "love u........" and he gets this annoyed/aggrivated tone and says "love you too baby bye".
He made it feel like talking to me was a chore. The only time I saw him ALL WEEK was on Thursday when I visited him after my doctors appointment. He could have at least spent 5 minuets on the phone....
I was already kind of upset with him over the childbirth class thing yesterday. And I was going to ask him if he could visit me today but he said he was gonna work, so I didn't bother because I figured work is more important. But he didnt go.... the last 2 weeks same thing... He keeps telling me not to stress and worry about $, because it'll all be okay. But if he keeps telling me he's working, nd he's not and we both know I'm not at the moment HOW can I NOT worry???????
IDK he's making me crazy. I'm so unhappy & upset right now. But I feel like I'm over-reacting, and I don't WANT to over-react. So I keep trying to ignore things, or justify things but I really am starting to feel like he is going to run away.. or that he's backing away slowly. We don't even HAVE a realationship anymore, we talk 1nc a day just to say "oh how was your day, good yours?" and then "ok goodnight, ily". We see each other maybe 2x a week for 15 min? Enough for a hug and a quick kiss......... and then he's running back out of my life.
And I cant DO anything because my stuipd ass is stuck at my parents! And he wont even TALK TO ME
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