April 21st 2010

Wednesday, April 21st; We are 32 Weeks & 1 Day Pregnant ~ Only 55 Days to Go!

Last Night I was so hyper and energetic and just feeling stressed and trapped in this house... Mom's friend Mel came by and hung around, ate dinner with us which was nice; I like Mel. Then I took the 15/20min trip to visit a friend I haven't seen in ages (Diana). I don't think we ever bothered to really try to be friends back then, but then we always had Rick between us x_x". Now that is really not an issue anymore lol. So I met her at her job (library) and drove to a local diner and ate french fries lmao it was fun and SO nice to get out of the house! I dropped her home, she invited me in to hangout a while but it was getting late already. And I didn't really want to stay out too late. I had so much fun. There was only one damper on the whole thing;
When I got to the diner I called Erik to let him know that I'd gone out, I was kind of expecting some kind of negative reaction because of how over-protective and nervous he's been about me going out, especially at night. But his response was "Alena this trust thing works 2 ways you know, I trust you" I offered to call him when I got home, figuring he'd want to make sure I was safe, and he says "no, no, it's OK you don't have to. Have fun & I'll talk to you tomorrow" so we said our "I Love You"s and our "Goodnight"s and I hung up. I sat in the diner bathroom crying for a minuet before I could collect myself to face the world. Ended up having a good time with Diana nonetheless. But when I got home it just bothered me so much. His over-protectiveness has been making me loony this whole time, but the one time he was way relaxed I got SO upset! I guess I find his wanting to protect me cute and in a strange way attractive. Like a constant reminder of just how much he cares about me & this baby. So I called him anyway and cried for a few minuets because it was just so awkward and I really couldn't explain what was bothering me.. I just really wanted to hear his voice before I went to bed!

It turned out to be a poor night for sleeping in the end though, I must have gotten up to pee 4 or 5 times and then was tossing & turning to try to get back to sleep each time. Finally when Mom came up to wake Mimi I just couldn't go back to sleep x_x" (believe me, I tried!) Went down and had breakfast (Coffee & cereal). About an hour later I felt super sleepy so I figured "wth can't hurt" and jumped back in bed. I had the GENIOUS idea to use my extra pillow to prop myself up with. AKA stuffed under my front between tummy + bed so I could roll onto my front a little w/o squishing baby. Got a good hour or two that way. Then I had another GENIOUS notion to try propping myself up the other way too. AKA squished under my back so I could roll onto my back w/o all my weight being flat on my back. That added another hour or two. Thank God!

I've decided that I have deff. hit the point in my pregnancy where all I really feel up to doing 80% of the time is eating & sleeping. Then of course there are days like yesterday 10% of the time were I have SO much energy and I'm so stressed I end up baking and cleaning obsessively. And finally there is the other 10% of the time were I feel okay like I did 3 or 4 months ago. Add in the heightened frequency of my bathroom trips, the BH contractions, the fact that he is DEFF. running out of room in there and beating my insides black+blue to make that known, PLUS the increased back pain... this is NOT a fun experience! (Secretly part of me would still consider doing it again in the future... gawds I am a masochist!) But talk to me after I've given birth & we'll see if I still think that way! Haha somehow I doubt it!!!!! (Erik keeps reminding me that Boltens have big heads lmao)

Anyway my day today was pretty low key. Tomorow is a Dentist appointment. Friday is baking day.

And PS I STILL OWE YOU PICTURES I'M SERIOUSLY BEHIND!!!!